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The Summer Of My Un-Doing and Re-Doing

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So, quite literally, on the first day of summer I decided that this would be the first summer of my life when I would do no work whatsoever, in terms of work that I could get paid for.

It was good timing. I was all caught up on projects. My next steps on a couple of things weren’t going to happen until September and quite honestly I was curious about what exactly I would do with my time all day long.

The plan was to take two whole months, which actually ended today, and just do some thinking.

After that, which kinda starts tomorrow, I would decide whether this was a good thing or a not so good thing, and then make some plans about what to do next.

First Of All….It Was A Great Summer

One of the best things for me about summer is swimming. We bought a house with a pool, mostly to lure the kids to take the trip down the highway to see us on the weekends, or to have the two grandkids here for a couple of days and let them go nuts in the water.

And all of that worked out fine. In fact they are coming again early next week, which will make four times this year so far.

We had to replace the pool liner this year, which meant that we got to put new water in the pool, which meant that I now know how many litres of water it holds and can take care of it the way its supposed to be taken care.

Aside from pool maintenance, there is the swimming. Swimming, for me, like riding my road bike and my stationery bike, is kind of a zen like experience. I find that my mind becomes very clear and uncluttered and I am able to focus much better.

A lot of people believe that almost any one-person exercise will do that for you.

The first thing I realized when I started swimming this year, is that I had much more stamina than I did last summer when my mind of full of stuff that had to be done. I was in a kind of loose partnership and loaded up with all the stuff that you need to be loaded up with to get things off the ground.

This year, I have divested myself of that partnership, (for a lot of reasons), and it’s amazing what getting time back does for your mind.

At first you’re kind of taken aback because the gap in activity is highly visible. It was disconcerting to say the least. But my wife and my sister just kept telling me to let it go and embrace the void. They assured me that something would inevitably come along to fill it and that I should just enjoy the empty space and see what happens.

Since these are the two smartest women I know, I took the advice and slowly found myself letting my anxiety drift away, lap after lap in the pool, mile after mile on the bike, night after night in sleep.

It’s A Different World

Going from having a cluttered mind and a hyperactive schedule to having a relatively uncluttered mind and no real schedule to speak of, outside of pool maintenance and meal prep, turned out to be a lot easier than I though it would.

Oh sure, for the first few weeks, your behavior is being governed by a kind of muscle memory. But that fades on the first day you wake up, get ready to jump up and grab the day by the nads, and go to town, and you suddenly realize, whoa, I don’t live in that world now.

After that, everything starts to slow down. And after that you start to work again, but it’s on a whole other level of urgency.

You start separating the wheat from the chaff. You start seeing what is bullshit and not worth your time and what is important and very much worth your time.

You start looking at certain aspects of life as totally absurd and other aspects of life as critical to you in a very personal way.

And after a while, as I was approaching the end of my self-imposed exile from the world, all the cloudiness, which was really just the dust from all the clutter in my mind falling away, starts to clear.

And what I see is the road ahead, free of bullshit-coated roadblocks. Hopefully devoid of any negativity. A renewed sense of purpose, a sharper focus and a direction that satisfies both my head and the heart.

Don’t Worry, I Haven’t Found Jesus Or Anything

Truth is that I haven’t found anything specific. Not yet. It’s a process like it always has been. But the good part is that I am now moving forward, as opposed to being stalled or going in reverse, both of which have been problematic in the past.

Where will it take me? Your guess is as good as mine. Please stay tuned, however, because I can only assume, from my current state of mind, that something will manifest itself in the near future.

One thing I did learn along the way is not to rush or force anything, so I am still drifting a bit. But the air is clear and if there is anything out there waiting to grab my attention I will not miss it.

Jim Out

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Jim Murray is an experienced advertising and marketing professional and former professional photographer. He has run his own business (Onwords & Upwords), since 1989 after a 20 year career in Toronto as a senior creative person in major Canadian & international advertising agencies. He is specialized in creating communications for businesses working to make a positive difference in the world.

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Fay Vietmeier

2 years ago #13

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Jim Murray Jim~ “Man prefers to believe what he prefers to be true.” — Francis Bacon We share this: "no belief in a religious god" As I mentioned before “religion” is of man (history confirms the corruption-corrupted thinking and corrupt agenda of the church & “religion”…to this very day) Wisdom & discernment are is required Believers are called into a relationship with God … through faith in His Son (all relationships are a sowing and reaping: if you sow nothing … you reap nothing) I grant that faith is belief in what is not seen (that is why its faith) “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see” (Hebrews 11) I never cease to be amazed that an Infinite, Almighty, All-seeing, All-knowing, All-powerful, All-Sufficient, Omnipotent & Omniscient GOD would created man in His image & gave us free will Will I will … or will I won’t? “Anyone who does not believe God has made Him out to be a liar, because he has not believed the testimony God has given about His Son. And this is the testimony: “God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the Son has life … he who does not have the Son of God does not have life” (1 John 5) Will I will … or will I won’t? At the end of the age there are only 2 lines: “Saint’s & Ain’ts … And we get to choose … Will I will … or will I won’t? “Believe” 2) So this is what you “figured out”? … "this universe is actually god and that we are a part of it" ... is this known as Pantheism? 3) You never answered: You replied: “I think of us are there at one time or another. You simply cannot live your life in 4th gear, unless you're into dying young.” “4th gear” ???

Jim Murray

2 years ago #12

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OK. So the first thing you need to know about me is that I have no belief in a religious god. I have written a few posts about this. I believe that this whole thing, this universe is actually god and that we are a part of it. That's pretty much it.

Fay Vietmeier

2 years ago #11

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Jim Murray Jim~ It’s funny that you “stung” me today ... (its intention is "sweet - like honey) my word for comments and responses on beBee ;~) Yesterday I thought of you because of a song that I heard and I returned to complete what I started writing to you back on August 27th when you said: “I actually did find Jesus...He said, " What the hell do you need me for? Go out and and figure it out yourself. That's why I gave you fee will." I knew you meant “free will” In case you hang up on me;~) I want to remember to compliment your creativity in naming your posts: I loved the “Earthling —which is on my list to read & comment And “Un-Doing and Re-Doing” … I walked away with a post stirring in my brain about the “Ultimate Makeover” … that I’m going to dedicate to you when it is complete … since wisdom is not hasty and some writing requires (for this bee) … prayerful thought … I’ll see when the words come Also As I was writing yesterday the thought occurred to me that if you’re: “Onwords & Upwords” (which is VERY clever) Then I’m “In-the-WORD & Upwards” ;~) Your response “what the hell do you need ME for?” reminded of a quote that came before my eyes earlier… A man rejects God neither because of intellectual demands nor because of the scarcity of evidence. A man rejects God because of a moral resistance that refuses to admit his need for God.” Ravi Zacharias “We have a right to believe whatever we want, but not everything we believe is right.” ~Ravi Zacharias Which brought to mind another quote which I love for its Truth: “Don’t believe everything you think” ~ Inspector Armand Gamache in those wonderful books by Canadian author, Louise Penny (which I mentioned to you when commenting at length;~) on your post A Tale of Two Countries) (part 1)

Fay Vietmeier

2 years ago #10

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Jim Murray (part 2) Back to “free will” You piqued my curious nature. Would you mind sharing what you “figured out”? Beyond that God gave man a free will … The gift of “free will” is SO much more than people recognize That song which brought you to my mind: God's Not Done with You ~ Tauren Wells Again, knowing Jesus IS the “ultimate makeover” … or as you said for entirely different reasons: “Un-Doing and Re-Doing” (You’re speaking in physical terms & I’m speaking in spiritual terms) Oh course such "ultimate makeovers" requires willingness, desire, and cooperation As I have learned … over time … in my relationship with the Lord (not “religion”) Lessons deeply learned and indelibly written on my heart … as I invested 10 years in what I have called my “time-of-captivity” … a “shut-in” time of personal reflection and study of the Scriptures. One of the valuable things I learned is that: “That God can only do for me what I allow Him to do in me” "As" always stands out to me as a measuring word of "sowing & reaping" And You replied: “I think of us are there at one time or another. You simply cannot live your life in 4th gear, unless you're into dying young.” Might you elaborate on what you’re saying? “Think of us there” … in heaven? “4th gear” ???

Fay Vietmeier

2 years ago #9

@JimMurray Jim~ It’s funny that you “stung” me today ... (its intention is "sweet - like honey) my word for comments and responses on beBee ;~) Yesterday I thought of you because of a song that I heard and I returned to complete what I started writing to you back on August 27th when you said: “I actually did find Jesus...He said, " What the hell do you need me for? Go out and and figure it out yourself. That's why I gave you fee will." I knew you meant “free will” In case you hang up on me;~) I want to remember to compliment your creativity in naming your posts: I loved the “Earthling —which is on my list to read & comment And “Un-Doing and Re-Doing” … I walked away with a post stirring in my brain about the “Ultimate Makeover” … that I’m going to dedicate to you when it is complete … since wisdom is not hasty and some writing requires (for this bee) … prayerful thought … I’ll see when the words come Also As I was writing yesterday the thought occurred to me that if you’re: “Onwords & Upwords” (which is VERY clever) Then I’m “In-the-WORD & Upwards” ;~) Your response “what the hell do you need ME for?” reminded of a quote that came before my eyes earlier… A man rejects God neither because of intellectual demands nor because of the scarcity of evidence. A man rejects God because of a moral resistance that refuses to admit his need for God.” Ravi Zacharias “We have a right to believe whatever we want, but not everything we believe is right.” ~Ravi Zacharias Which brought to mind another quote which I love for its Truth: “Don’t believe everything you think” ~ Inspector Armand Gamache in those wonderful books by Canadian author, Louise Penny (which I mentioned to you when commenting at length;~) on your post A Tale of Two Countries) (part 1)

Jim Murray

2 years ago #8

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I think of us are there at one time or another. You simply cannot live your life in 4th gear, unless you're into dying young. @Fay Vietmeier

Jim Murray

2 years ago #7

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I actually did find Jesus...He said, " What the hell do you need me for? Go out and and figure it out yourself. That's why I gave you fee will." So I did.

Fay Vietmeier

2 years ago #6

Jim Murray Jim~For totally different reasons, I too had a season of “separating the wheat from the chaff” … a reordering of priorities as it were. I too am a swimmer (previously a marathon runner) and try to swim every day because I feel better for doing it … but more so … when my head is under the water thoughts come flooding in my mind … and stress goes out my toes ;~) As I read your words…this poem came to mind by ~Margaret Atwood ~ Morning in the Burned House “The Moment” The moment, when after many years of hard work and a long voyage you stand in the center of your room , house, half-acre, square mile, island, country, knowing at last how you got there, and say, I own this, is the same moment the trees unloose their soft arms from around you, the birds take back their language, the cliffs fissure and collapse, the air moves back for you like a wave and you can’t breath. No, they whisper. You own nothing. You were a visitor, time after time Climbing the hill, planting the flag, proclaiming We never belonged to you. You never found us. It was the other way around. Now’s here’s a good one: you’re lying on your deathbed. You have one hour to live. Who is it exactly, you have needed all these years to forgive? (these last lines are used repeatedly in Louise Penny’s books … mentioned to you in a prior post) I was sorry to read that you haven’t “found Jesus” It’s the ultimate: “Un-Doing and Re-Doing”

Ken Sylvia

2 years ago #5

Great state to be in, Jim.

Jerry Fletcher

2 years ago #4

Jim, A bout with illness gave me the same viewpoint. The journey back to health, diet and exercise has been invigorating to say the least. I still enjoy ongoing work with clients but that is just half days when I feel like it. Enjoy my friend, as you reconnect. Life is worth savoring. And so it goes.

Ken Boddie

2 years ago #3

Oh yeah ... and avoid the big stuff. 🤣

Ken Boddie

2 years ago #2

I reckon the secret is to keep busy but not sweat the little stuff, Jim. Perhaps Bing Crosby nailed it with ... “We're busy doin' nothin' Workin' the whole day through Tryin' to find lots of things not to do We're busy goin' nowhere Isn't it just a crime We'd like to be unhappy, but We never do have the time.” 🤗

Pascal Derrien

2 years ago #1

I have been doing something similar best thing ever 🤔

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